I wrote before about depersonalisation being a symptom of anxiety and it is something I have felt before but not for long periods of time. This time it's decided to stick around for longer than I would of liked.
So basically what happens is when your brain has had enough of being anxious it goes into protective mode, pretty clever really but can be quite freaky when you don't know what's going on.
I was scared about writing about this, silly really when I'm so open about having anxiety and encourage people to be the same. But I'm not going to lie I've felt like I am literally about to lose my mind at any second.
When you have depersonalisation and derealisation you feel like you're in a dream 24/7, kinda like you're on drugs which for some people sounds like a joy but for someone who is obsessed with being in control of yourself it's bloody awful!
I've also had symptoms where I've not felt like myself, especially when I look in the mirror, I do know it's me and I look exactly like I always have but not felt like me inside.
The good news is everyone has said I'm acting exactly the same as always and they can't tell at all! Which to me is a massive relief when I've felt so odd!
So, in true , 'me' style I have got as much reassurance from people as possible and also took a trip to the Drs! Luckily I have a very understanding Dr and he knew immediately what I was harping on about! He told me it's completely normal and its very common in anxiety sufferers unfortunately. Basically us peeps with anxiety are uber aware of every little feeling our body feels compared with other people. He told me to know it will get better and that I have overcome everything else and it is possible to overcome this too. Phew!!
I have started to realise that we all need to be kinder to ourselves. We are stronger than we give ourselves credit for, we keep going even though it feels like walking through mud at times!
Anxiety is a funny old thing and can manifest itself in so many different symptoms and has a very good way of telling your mind little lies. But again, you won't be alone when feeling a certain feeling or symptom, there will always be someone who has gone through it too! Don't suffer in silence either, that makes it soo much worse. Keep fighting and being strong, you can do this!
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